Current flood of people

The arguments in favor and against the flood of the refugees or asylum-seekers are flying back and forth. Everyone has their opinions and emotions about what is happening and we have all the rights to have them. This whole event that has taken place in Middle East and Europe has caused all the fears jump up onto the surface. It is a process that is forcing us to face our fears whatever they are. 

Hopefully the process will lead into better humanity and human value never mind where the person is coming from or who he or she is or what color he or she has.

I want to call for human dignity or maybe value of god or grace among us. Different religions are being so heavily on their own view of what is right and what is false. Religions differ on so many issues although most are praying for the same God in different names and ways. The same is with people - we have opinions, our own point of view and our emotions but who is entitled to decide or define what is true, who is right and who has got it wrong?

There is fear of an increase in raping women and girls. Perhaps there is a secret fear that our daughters might be more fascinated by the men from foreign culture than men of our own country. There is fear that the status of women and girls and the equality between men and women will deteriorate. There is fear about losing the job opportunities and homes or money to migrants. There is fear that the refugees will bring the war with them. All these and many other fears are causing confusion inside and among the people and a lot of hostile speeches and aggression is taking place – a war caused by all that negative attitudes and expressions. Each hostile speech and aggressive deed is a rape against another’s humanity and feelings. Is pampering or silencing or ridiculing the fears then the opposite of rape? No - no way.

There has been raping and violence inside our society before all these new refugees have arrived.  I also have been subjected to it. There were violent and abusive adults around while I was a child. I have been raped both physically, emotionally and mentally by just ordinary Finnish family men of our little village and by domestic helpers of my home and all that while I was less than six years old. And still the children of those very same rapers were bullying me and no one was telling me that they did wrong and I simply thought that I deserved all that violence as those people were saying to me. All that was just silenced and no one raised a hand or voice against it - why would it be different from any other violence? I am not wanting any of that to continue anymore but stop it.

Why I tell this? Because I feel very frustrated about these grazy conflicts and hostile speeches which don’t take us anywhere but into the inner and outer war. It simply is time to STOP NOW ALL THAT and try to find new solutions.

So what to do or how to solve the conflict? Probably neutral and thoughtful attitude toward the refugees, asylum-seekers and those who travel because they have a different dream of life will help.

We have to inform migrants about our culture and way of life and allow them to participate soon in our society and communities by working and learning to live here. We need to learn something about their lives and culture and we all - both sides - need to learn to respect each other and throw away our own hostility and sick attitudes. We don’t have that strong communities  or family ties anymore here in Finland but we are more or less worshipping individuality.  We have had very strong and alive own culture once yet many of us have forgotten it and most of the migrants are coming from communities and societies where family ties and culture or religion are much tighter than here. Naturally there will rise many confusing situations among people but they are solvable if there is good will.

I don’t want to belong to any community of hatred or hostility where there is disrespect and hurtful action against other members.  I want to be a part of the world wide community which embraces different cultures, races and ways and where all the people can live their lives in integrity and peace.

How can we weed the culture of hatred or hostility? What would have positive impact to the attitude and behaviour among both the newcomers and the citizens?

- I don’t have any other solution but spreaching information about different cultures and ways of life, communication between each other and getting to know each other. Let’s demolish the fortresses of our minds and create a new kind of community or society and raise new humanity in ourself and others. Migration between nations and people will continue also in the future, this is not the last international migration so better to learn to respect and get to know each other and we have to start it from ourselves.

Summer in Finland! Yayyy!!!

It felt like the winter lasted for ever but now the SUMMER and warm weather have been here for few weeks. The nature is lush and green and blossoming, birds are singing, water is getting warmer every day and  kids will get off from school by the end of this week.

 Nights are full of light already, no dark time anymore until the end of July. Even if the growth season is so short these conditions give a lot of life power to the vegetables and berries. We get so great super food from our own gardens and forests if that is what we want.

People smile and laugh more in the Summer time. They greet one another and sometimes even so that they greet people they don't know which doesn't really happen in Finland too often. That is something I have been missing from my time in Boulder Colorado the smiling and greeting neighbors or passer-byes.

I enjoy so much of this time of the year, it feels like I would become alive again or wake up from hibernation and I guess there are many others who feels the same.

The Dragon and a Precious Treasure

My Dragon is small wounded me who doesn’t want to get hurt any more. My wounded me is residing as a dragon in the front of the cave and guarding the treasure. The Dragon believes that it has to be watching out that no one can steel or harm the treasure. The Treasure is located in the middle of the cave and shining dimly there. It is a beautiful gemstone – a diamond – but its light cannot shine there the way it could outside the cave.

The diamond has been polished beautifully and it could shine so nicely if it would be taken out of the cave but the Dragon doesn’t want to let it go. It is afraid that someone would destroy the treasure or take it away.

The Dragon doesn’t understand that the treasure doesn’t shine so well inside the cave and its value is decreased there in the darkness of the cave. It doesn’t know how beautiful the diamond is in the sunshine. It has no clue of the whole beauty of the treasure yet it knows that the diamond it is guarding is something extremely valuable and special.

While the Dragon imprisoned the treasure it imprisoned itself and it continues guarding, it continues being a capture and a prisoner.

Finally the Dragon is tired and sick of being held in front of the cave and it sees how so many other treasures have been delighting in the world and the Dragons are flying free. It sees how the other treasures get appreciation after they have been brought out from the cave, when the sun is shining upon them and the light and all the colors are radiating in and from them. It sees how the diamond’s beauty is multiplied through the hearts, eyes and smiles of the others and how the beauty and radiance of all the treasures is ever brighter through and with each other.

Oh – and then the Dragon sees it – it understands that the treasure has to be revealed, brought out from the cave, it has to let it shine and enlighten, bring the beauty and colors outside and around. The diamond is meant to be available and shown, it is meant to shine with the other treasures. Its purpose is to add the value and beauty of the other treasures by shining together.

  

The Dragon understands that the treasure, the diamond, which it had been guarding for so long time is a soul and it is a beauty of human emotions and human experience and by releasing the treasure it has released itself. A long heavy sigh is coming out of its chest. The Dragon feels relief and gratitude that it finally let itself to see the fullness and the beauty and the radiance of the treasure which it had been hiding. Finally it was able to give the freedom for both of them. Now that the treasure is free for everyone to enjoy and delight of the beauty of it some of the other guarding Dragons and their guarded treasures get inspired and encouraged to get free. All the treasures could now shine and radiate together and they are ever more beautiful together.

Now the Dragon has fulfilled its job and purpose, it has polished the treasure by guarding it and then brought it outside to be seen. The treasure looks and feels even more beautiful and shines more from inside and out when being with other treasures and it is ready to extend its radiance ever farther.

Finally the Dragon can fly freely in the sky and it is so grateful for its newly found freedom.

The release of the treasure is freedom for both of them - for the guard and the guarded. Freedom is healing of my wounded me. Although there still are some scars the wounds have started to heal and the scars too will be healed one day. It has been healed so much that it can release itself and release the Dragon.

Affirmation for today and all todays

I open my heart to receive new and miraculous things ♥
I open my mind to understand humanity and life ever more
I open my body to heal and feel ever better
* I open my whole being for the Life to flow and blossom beautifully in and through me
So it be and so it is

Welcome spring and the sun!

It was vernal equinox a couple of days ago. Spring has officially come. I like it - a lot.

It has been exceptionally dark winter in Finland. Over few months period we had just 52 hours of sunshine measured at Helsinki-Vantaa Airport. Oh boy - it is long time without sun showing up. People get depressed easily and turn inside.
When the sun shows up everyone is more joyful and smiles easier and even greets one another. What a difference it makes to see the sun.

After such a long time without sunshine it feels just so good to let the sun shine on my face and feel it, drink the light, get nourished by it. I can wake up from my winter cave and go out. It is so good to wake up in the morning when the day is dawning every day earlier, today it was at about 6am.

This is the third winter after my move back to Finland. It was a shock to live the winter time here because of this lack of sunlight. There was sunlight almost everyday year around in Colorado, Boulder. I miss it. Yet the summer is coming again and it is extremely beautiful in Finland in summer time and the midnight sun. Soon there is no dark time at all until the next fall. I love it. Nice summer nights full of light, birds are chirping, green grass all through summer and water in the lakes is inviting us to swim.

Now I enjoy this springtime, melting snow, sunshine, budding life in trees and the feeling of opening everywhere in the nature!

Claiming a new me in Finland's Independence day

This whole year (whole life) has been a time for a big shift for me, in me and in my capacity to learn to live more fully, to show up more fully and to notice how great it feels. 
Although sometimes I have felt like shit but then my dear friends have been there for me and pushing and pulling from the ditch or offering a ladder to climb off from the ditch. 

It has been a long road and so many rocks and holes there - oh - how many bumps it has taken to walk on this road.

There has been celebration, joy and grace in turn also. Life is so full of all kind of events and I can say that I have lived this life so far and I will live from now on too and ever more loving and celebrating the Life and it's Creator.

So this Finland's independence day is a good day to claim the new me and new colors and fullness of love in life.

Why living a bit differently than expected by others

Following my heart, following my intuition, doesn't allow me to stay too fixated in one place or in one condition or one job. There is always room for flexibility and understanding yet sometimes there has to be some steadiness too that life can emerge in that place too, that life will get some form in that place and we all who are involved in that place will get our needs being met. 

The relation between flexibility and steadiness is interesting. They are not controversy or opposites. I can be flexible even though I am steady. Flexibility gives space or room for adjustments in everything which is good because we do have people around and we all have our ideas and needs.  And steadiness is nothing too fixed or bony but letting the life get form and stream easily where I need it to do so. 

So what if I let this life now flow and stream outside into the rare situation or weather condition which we have here in the northern hemisphere today or now.

October, the fall has shown its power

Most of the leaves have fallen and trees are naked, grass is getting brown, migratory birds have flown to south. Mother Nature is going to rest for some months here in the northern hemisphere. The time of sunlight is shorter and shorter, soon it is just few hours a day - when it shows up from behind the clouds.
The first frozen nights have been in the Northern Finland but here in the southern part of the country we still have got unfrozen ground - but I am sure it will change fast.


This is a time for us, human beings, too to turn inside. We have to have more clothing and for some reason we don't see the others the way we see them in the summer time. People are greeting each other easier in the summer than in the winter. That is so amazing, we would need more of friendly smiles and words in the winter too and they would warm us a bit in the cold weather. Well, I guess it is what we perceive - I will choose to see more smiles and get more warm hugs this winter. Will you?

So many interesting things have been happening during the whole year and more good things will happen. The life is good yet sometimes is can be quite challenging to live daily life here. Fortunately I have so many good friends all over the world and feeling blessed by it. Feeling blessed by you dear friends. Always remembering so many of my Boulder friends as well as my friends in France, England, Ireland, Germany, Spain, Sweden, Egypt, .... Finland.

I have been burning candles since July already, I love the natural light, the fire, the warmth in them. Even this morning I lit few candles and have been enjoying about them.



Today the sun finally decided to show up for few moments and I see the blue sky. It is time to go out for a hike in the woods.

OMG, I noticed that I haven't been writing for aeons here

I got a reminder that my blogging is badly overdue. It is over a year since I was writing last time.
So much have happened after that.

I finally gave up from my idea to live in two countries and last spring I moved back to Finland completely.
My father died last July.
The work has really picked up momentum.
I have met tons of new wonderful people.
We completed our divorce with John.

And we are in this interesting and magical new year of 2012 when everything is possible. The Mayan calender ends and the new era will begin.

Life is very interesting indeed and such a great adventure every day.

Life after Midsummer festivities

We are living the last days of June 2011. 

The summer has really started to blossom in Finland, everything is so luscious and green and weather is quite warm.  I am a big fan of these summer nights full of light, not so dark even in the darkest hours.

We had Midsummer festivities last weekend and people were enjoying it in many different ways. It is very quiet in town at the midsummer festival time. I stayed with my son at home and didn’t even go to see any bonfires which were burned near the lakes.  In the morning of June 25^th I woke very early after a short sleep and went for a jog into the nearby forest and lakeside. It was so beautiful and silent, just birds were singing. Wind was totally calm and the surface of lake was so smooth and still just a couple of ducks were swimming there. Ah…  That was a heaven.

Midsummer is few days after the Summer Solstice and it is very energetic time. I have had strong dreams and weird feelings every once and a while. Here in Finland employed people are leaving to their annual summer vacations after the midsummer time. July is the main summer holiday time because it is the warmest time in Finland – usually. I am working and having some fun and off time whenever I can. Meeting relatives and friends all over Finland and attending to some summer events. I will lead some workshops too here in Finland in different locations and that is a lot of fun. 

Time to go now to enjoy outdoor life in this sunny Monday.

Back in Finland again

It is always amazing how fast time is passing. It feels that I was just planning my trip to Boulder and now it is over and I am back in Finland again. The date before the title is showing Boulder time, in Finland it is Thursday morning already.


The flight here was good although my flight from Denver to London was delayed two hours. Fortunately I had plenty of time to change the plane in London. It gave me a couple of hours more to spend time in Boulder. We went for a short walk in a park near Baseline. There was nice trail along the river. Birds were singing and I heard some crickets too, I just love the sound of crickets. I should have got few of them as suveniers because there is no crickets in Finland - just few grasshoppers later in July.

Departure from London was about half an hour late too, not too bad. The flight from London to Helsinki takes about three hours. When we had flown two hours the pilot announced that the baggage claim crew had just walked out from the airport in Helsinki. This meant that we didn't get our luggage after landing but they would be delivered some time later. I had three of them because I was bringing my daughters stuff back to Finland. She moved back to Finland last spring after she graduated from the high school and we couldn't get all her stuff back then.
I arrived to Finland about 10pm on Friday evening after traveling about 16 hours alltogether. One of my friends was picking me up and we headed to Tampere where I live here. It was about two hours drive.
Two of my bags arrived on Monday evening and one on Tuesday evening. Good that I had clothes here - otherwise it would have been a bit uncomfortable situation.

It is nice and lushious summer here as it is in Boulder too. So lovely weather at the moment - warm and sunny, hopefully it will continue longer. The first thing in the Saturday morning I went out walking to the forest nearby. Actually it starts immediately from the front door of this house. So nice!

Yesterday -Wednesday- evening I was in a concert where a couple of my friends were playing Tibetan Singing Bowls and bass guitar. It was beautiful and relaxing - really nice combination. I loved it.

I will begin to work here again next week, I did few Sound Healing sessions on Tuesday but I have been quite a lot in Jetlag mode still and getting overly tired in the afternoons when my best working time is.
Today I will take some people to the forest and lakeside nearby and we'll be meditating and observing and listening/feeling some nature phenomenas there. It'll be fun.

Feelings about being in Boulder again and Farmers Market

It has been so delightful to be in Boulder again. I have tremendously enjoyed walking on the streets and driving around, meeting friends. I have been able to do a work that I so much love, doing treatments and being of service in that small way.
It feels good that this is possible.

On Saturday morning weather was so inviting - I went to the Farmers Market in downtown. It felt like summer day. Oh I love so much the sounds and feelings there: people talking to each other and vendors, kids running and laughing, birds singing, wind blowing in the trees, Boulder Creek rippling nearby - and bright blue sky.

I took few moments to sit down and talk to Brother Sage - a reflexologist who is often there doing treatments near the Market place. Actually I had very nice reflexology session where I was the receiving part. He is excellent. It was so good to sit down and close my eyes and just listen to the sounds around and enjoy of a great treatment and moment.

And soon I am going to Sunday service at Columbine Unity to listen to one of the empowering talks that are offered there. What a treat it is.

Jetlag and blessings

I thought I could trick myself this time to not get into jetlag mode. It didn't work. Heavy waves of sleepiness sweeping over me in the afternoon. Time difference is nine hours and I notice it. Well - it will pass, next week I will be used to this timezone again.

How wonderful it has been to connect with Johnny and with so many friends already and with many others soon. Potluck dinner this evening at one friends house is fun to go.

Just few months or even weeks ago I or we - Johnny and I - didn't know how to make this happen and now it is reality. So many caring friends around both of us have been helping to make this trip and our reunion to happen - what a huge blessing. I was reading an e-mail of one friend yesterday evening and it hit me once again what a treasure it is to have all these loving and caring friends in our life.

I was in tears and thinking what on earth have I done to deserve all these blessings? It felt almost overwhelming but so wonderfully overwhelming. There is Grace involved in these blessings brought by the friends and good people around. You are Angels walking in human forms. Thank you dear human Angels!

In Boulder from 22nd of March until 26th of May

After a week from now I will be in Boulder for two months.

I want to thank Johnny and all of the dear friends and people that have helped us to make this trip to happen.  

I wouldn't have guessed how mouch I can miss Boulder, not just the sun shine which I really love there, but all of it. And Johnny has been very supportive in planning and making my travel plans to come true.

So very soon I will be in Boulder. How great is that! And I will get to do the work there too that I so much love.

I will meet Johnny and so many dear friends - maybe to make some new friends too. I will also see the beautiful spring time there and maybe even get to experience a purple rain again. Last spring I went through a purple rain - the flower petals from some blossoming trees flying in the wind. It was incredible experience and feeling.

The trip is so near and there is still a lot to do here to make everything ready for me to leave. And I am already missing my son and my daughter here.
It is like one friend said - once you cross the ocean you are always in the wrong side of it . Yet I know that I am always in the right place for every moment. Today I am in Finland in Tampere and next week I will be in Boulder at this time.

Spring Solstice and cycles of Life

It is amazing and natural on the other hand how this globe and the whole world are going through cycles. We are again in the moment when the day is getting longer than the night. I see also how the life is germinating and starting to radiate in plants. A renewed life force in the trees and plants is already glowing and visible.

The snow crystals are changing to more glass like and melting in the sun shine.

Sun is rising now around 7am and setting aroun 7pm. Very soon the daylight is stronger and longer than the dark time - so short time ago we had just few hours a daylight here and what a huge difference it makes to have longer days. People are smiling again and looking at each others and around, not just hiding or turning inside.

I have always had a feeling that this is a time for me to end my hibernation and get up from my winter cave. It is time to start new things and renew some things that have been stored for later activity.

This year the Spring Solstice happens when I am traveling to Boulder – to my other hometown. There the difference between the day and the night is not the same as here in North. There the daylight is much longer all over the year than here in Northern side of Mother Earth.

This year my Spring Solstice will last also a bit longer because I am traveling to Boulder and the time difference is nine hours – I am traveling kind of backward in time.

I am very excited about this trip. There are so many people I love and I love the nature and the mountains there – I love the sun shine. It feels extremely good to get there for some time. And I am so happy and thankful that also there I can do the work that I love. This type of work is so full of grace because of many reasons: it is - creative; I can always learn more about things, about myself, about others; I can do it where ever I go; I can meet interesting people, I can help in some way the others – I could continue the list why I am so grateful that I have been gifted this kind of work.