Life after Midsummer festivities

We are living the last days of June 2011. 

The summer has really started to blossom in Finland, everything is so luscious and green and weather is quite warm.  I am a big fan of these summer nights full of light, not so dark even in the darkest hours.

We had Midsummer festivities last weekend and people were enjoying it in many different ways. It is very quiet in town at the midsummer festival time. I stayed with my son at home and didn’t even go to see any bonfires which were burned near the lakes.  In the morning of June 25^th I woke very early after a short sleep and went for a jog into the nearby forest and lakeside. It was so beautiful and silent, just birds were singing. Wind was totally calm and the surface of lake was so smooth and still just a couple of ducks were swimming there. Ah…  That was a heaven.

Midsummer is few days after the Summer Solstice and it is very energetic time. I have had strong dreams and weird feelings every once and a while. Here in Finland employed people are leaving to their annual summer vacations after the midsummer time. July is the main summer holiday time because it is the warmest time in Finland – usually. I am working and having some fun and off time whenever I can. Meeting relatives and friends all over Finland and attending to some summer events. I will lead some workshops too here in Finland in different locations and that is a lot of fun. 

Time to go now to enjoy outdoor life in this sunny Monday.

Back in Finland again

It is always amazing how fast time is passing. It feels that I was just planning my trip to Boulder and now it is over and I am back in Finland again. The date before the title is showing Boulder time, in Finland it is Thursday morning already.


The flight here was good although my flight from Denver to London was delayed two hours. Fortunately I had plenty of time to change the plane in London. It gave me a couple of hours more to spend time in Boulder. We went for a short walk in a park near Baseline. There was nice trail along the river. Birds were singing and I heard some crickets too, I just love the sound of crickets. I should have got few of them as suveniers because there is no crickets in Finland - just few grasshoppers later in July.

Departure from London was about half an hour late too, not too bad. The flight from London to Helsinki takes about three hours. When we had flown two hours the pilot announced that the baggage claim crew had just walked out from the airport in Helsinki. This meant that we didn't get our luggage after landing but they would be delivered some time later. I had three of them because I was bringing my daughters stuff back to Finland. She moved back to Finland last spring after she graduated from the high school and we couldn't get all her stuff back then.
I arrived to Finland about 10pm on Friday evening after traveling about 16 hours alltogether. One of my friends was picking me up and we headed to Tampere where I live here. It was about two hours drive.
Two of my bags arrived on Monday evening and one on Tuesday evening. Good that I had clothes here - otherwise it would have been a bit uncomfortable situation.

It is nice and lushious summer here as it is in Boulder too. So lovely weather at the moment - warm and sunny, hopefully it will continue longer. The first thing in the Saturday morning I went out walking to the forest nearby. Actually it starts immediately from the front door of this house. So nice!

Yesterday -Wednesday- evening I was in a concert where a couple of my friends were playing Tibetan Singing Bowls and bass guitar. It was beautiful and relaxing - really nice combination. I loved it.

I will begin to work here again next week, I did few Sound Healing sessions on Tuesday but I have been quite a lot in Jetlag mode still and getting overly tired in the afternoons when my best working time is.
Today I will take some people to the forest and lakeside nearby and we'll be meditating and observing and listening/feeling some nature phenomenas there. It'll be fun.

Feelings about being in Boulder again and Farmers Market

It has been so delightful to be in Boulder again. I have tremendously enjoyed walking on the streets and driving around, meeting friends. I have been able to do a work that I so much love, doing treatments and being of service in that small way.
It feels good that this is possible.

On Saturday morning weather was so inviting - I went to the Farmers Market in downtown. It felt like summer day. Oh I love so much the sounds and feelings there: people talking to each other and vendors, kids running and laughing, birds singing, wind blowing in the trees, Boulder Creek rippling nearby - and bright blue sky.

I took few moments to sit down and talk to Brother Sage - a reflexologist who is often there doing treatments near the Market place. Actually I had very nice reflexology session where I was the receiving part. He is excellent. It was so good to sit down and close my eyes and just listen to the sounds around and enjoy of a great treatment and moment.

And soon I am going to Sunday service at Columbine Unity to listen to one of the empowering talks that are offered there. What a treat it is.

Jetlag and blessings

I thought I could trick myself this time to not get into jetlag mode. It didn't work. Heavy waves of sleepiness sweeping over me in the afternoon. Time difference is nine hours and I notice it. Well - it will pass, next week I will be used to this timezone again.

How wonderful it has been to connect with Johnny and with so many friends already and with many others soon. Potluck dinner this evening at one friends house is fun to go.

Just few months or even weeks ago I or we - Johnny and I - didn't know how to make this happen and now it is reality. So many caring friends around both of us have been helping to make this trip and our reunion to happen - what a huge blessing. I was reading an e-mail of one friend yesterday evening and it hit me once again what a treasure it is to have all these loving and caring friends in our life.

I was in tears and thinking what on earth have I done to deserve all these blessings? It felt almost overwhelming but so wonderfully overwhelming. There is Grace involved in these blessings brought by the friends and good people around. You are Angels walking in human forms. Thank you dear human Angels!

In Boulder from 22nd of March until 26th of May

After a week from now I will be in Boulder for two months.

I want to thank Johnny and all of the dear friends and people that have helped us to make this trip to happen.  

I wouldn't have guessed how mouch I can miss Boulder, not just the sun shine which I really love there, but all of it. And Johnny has been very supportive in planning and making my travel plans to come true.

So very soon I will be in Boulder. How great is that! And I will get to do the work there too that I so much love.

I will meet Johnny and so many dear friends - maybe to make some new friends too. I will also see the beautiful spring time there and maybe even get to experience a purple rain again. Last spring I went through a purple rain - the flower petals from some blossoming trees flying in the wind. It was incredible experience and feeling.

The trip is so near and there is still a lot to do here to make everything ready for me to leave. And I am already missing my son and my daughter here.
It is like one friend said - once you cross the ocean you are always in the wrong side of it . Yet I know that I am always in the right place for every moment. Today I am in Finland in Tampere and next week I will be in Boulder at this time.

Spring Solstice and cycles of Life

It is amazing and natural on the other hand how this globe and the whole world are going through cycles. We are again in the moment when the day is getting longer than the night. I see also how the life is germinating and starting to radiate in plants. A renewed life force in the trees and plants is already glowing and visible.

The snow crystals are changing to more glass like and melting in the sun shine.

Sun is rising now around 7am and setting aroun 7pm. Very soon the daylight is stronger and longer than the dark time - so short time ago we had just few hours a daylight here and what a huge difference it makes to have longer days. People are smiling again and looking at each others and around, not just hiding or turning inside.

I have always had a feeling that this is a time for me to end my hibernation and get up from my winter cave. It is time to start new things and renew some things that have been stored for later activity.

This year the Spring Solstice happens when I am traveling to Boulder – to my other hometown. There the difference between the day and the night is not the same as here in North. There the daylight is much longer all over the year than here in Northern side of Mother Earth.

This year my Spring Solstice will last also a bit longer because I am traveling to Boulder and the time difference is nine hours – I am traveling kind of backward in time.

I am very excited about this trip. There are so many people I love and I love the nature and the mountains there – I love the sun shine. It feels extremely good to get there for some time. And I am so happy and thankful that also there I can do the work that I love. This type of work is so full of grace because of many reasons: it is - creative; I can always learn more about things, about myself, about others; I can do it where ever I go; I can meet interesting people, I can help in some way the others – I could continue the list why I am so grateful that I have been gifted this kind of work. 

How well we have loved?

This morning one client – friend – called me very early and thanked for a treatment that I did to her yesterday. She had got some insights about her situation and thought patterns.  She also read a poem that I had written in December 2004. It was a time when I was feeling strongly that I am love – I am loved. In the poem I had thanked Life – the Living God – about my daily opportunity to find love in me, the Love that had been hiding behind the curtains in me. 

Soon after the phone call I was reading my e-mails and specially one long one. There was once sentence that pulled my attention:
President Obama said, “What matters is not wealth, or status, or power, or fame, but how well we have Loved.”

I couldn’t help but I burst into tears when thinking of these two messages that came right this morning. How true that is! So many loving beings do I have around! – My family, friends and community here and out in the World.

A little while ago there was a lot talk about the Shadow Effect book and movie. There was one exercise in the program which I did while watching it. The idea was to think about one feature that I value in me. When I was trying to think about one feature I thought about being loving but couldn’t quite give value to that because it happened naturally – I don’t do anything there, it just happens – so I chose some other characteristic for that exercise. It is so weird that I was still thinking that I have to be active, do something, in order to give value to it. So often I feel amazed what has happened that I have so many loving people around – near me, never mind if we have some physical distance between us.

Love is – there is nothing to be done in it. Of course I can behave accepting, loving way, be active that way and I rather do so. How much better I feel when I act out lovingly than when I act judging, quarrelsome or any other “negative” way. Although acting out lovingly doesn’t mean accommodating others but being firm in my own space and place when needed. Also there I can express myself so that I don’t hurt others but just stay true what I feel to be true to me. 

How good it feels to be loving and to be loved. Obama is a wise man and a wise leader of a huge country and nation. All that matters is how well we have loved ourselves and others.

Sparkling, radiating crystals and colors on the ground, on the water and in the sky

I was walking outside in the sunny but freezing cold weather again but enjoying it a lot because of the beauty that is out there in this snowy country.

It is so amazing how creative the nature is. There are diamonds and many other gemstones created in the ground - usually they just are too expensive for many of us.

There are also diamonds that we can see on the ground - like now here the little snowflakes and crystals are sparkling like zillions of diamonds or in the summer in the morning and evening sun we can see the diamonds in the water and what is the best - they don't cost anything - we all can afford them and enjoy seeing them. That is so great!

I just love those zillions of sparkling crystals on the ground or on the water, sometimes colored by golden sunshine, sometimes getting a color from the blue sky or green forests around. It is so beautiful and nourishing to see them and the variety of colors there.

Here we can see also the Northern lights in the blue night sky, how radiant are they!
In USA there is a story how Lakota Indians traveled to the North just to breathe the healing energy of the Northern lights.

The rainbows - ahh... they are so energizing too, vibrant colors in the sky.

All these phenomena in the nature are so full of grace and makes me feel so grateful and joyous.

Living on two different continents, traveling to Boulder again in March

One of my friends said that "once you cross the ocean you are always in the wrong side of it". So true!

I moved to Boulder in August 2006. I had visited there just once before that.

The move to a new country, environment, altitude, culture, society and marriage was exciting and very challenging, there I could say difficult.

It took a couple of years to find my place in the new life yet it still was a challenge. It was very helpful to find a warm welcoming community at the Columbine Unity church - I made some good friends there and I loved Scotts services, I loved the feeling there - it reminded me so much of my own spiritual center in Finland which actually was quite different from the church but still.... Not too much of a religion but esoteric teachings.

Finally when I had started my healing practice also in Boulder after getting settled there things started to get better. It is not just a work for me but the way of life which I so much enjoy.

Last spring I had to make a decision to move back to Finland for a while - there were many reasons for that.

This stay in Finland has lasted longer than I was thinking at first.

When I left Boulder last summer in June my plan was to come back in about October but I couldn't make it happen. Then I set another goal - in January. It didn't work either. Now I am positive that it will happen in March and I will stay for a couple of months before getting back to Finland for a couple of months again.

The summer in Finland is something that I wouldn't like to miss - there is so much light in the opposite of winter when there is no light at all at some point. The sunny days and nights are something that I really love, the fresh nature, green forests and fields and blue lakes everywhere.

My parents and my children are reasons why I need to live partly in Finland. My son is growing fast - he is 14years already - and my parents are getting older and their condition is getting worse. My father will go to a hospital next week - they will try to do angioplasty to his aorta. We all hope that everything will go fine with the procedure and the quality of his life will get better again.

After coming to Finland I have been missing a lot Boulder, the Columbine Church community where I felt welcome, mountains and not least my dear husband although we have had a lot of challenges in our marriage.

I am hoping that I or we can handle this way to live for a little while because I don't want to lose the opportunity with these beloved people in my life but rather have a way to be in touch and present at least part of the time with each one of them

Dreams, written on Saturday October 24th 2009

Dreams

I have quite lively dreamlife and I remember most of my dreams when I wake up. I write them down and review at some point later. I could write many novels of my dreams.

Dreams are an excellent way how my subconscious is telling where I am at the moment in my inner work.

Last night I had a Saint visiting in my dream. He was acting quite funny way and I woke up by laughing out loud. Sometimes it happens.

I think that we are too serious in many ways and in many situations about our life and stuff in our life. It is good to remember laughter when the laughter is healthy one. It clears - as tears do too - the energies that we carry with us, in us.

Relationships and Mirrors in September the 1st of 2010

Relationships

The whole life is based on relationships.

The life is and we can experience it through relationships with everything: with myself, with others, things, animals, plants, sounds, emotions, thoughts, stuff….

There is no way out from relationships. If I say that I don’t want any relationships, it means that I am avoiding life and its different forms that it takes. Sometimes it is good so but because the life has its way to happen through us we have to surrender to relationships – never mind is it with friends, with spouse, with parents or children, with teachers, with thoughts, with everything – there is always some kind of relationship involved as long as there is life.

I am sitting on the chair in my apartment typing this with my computer and letting the thoughts come through me. There are a lot of relationships with different elements involved while I am writing.

Mirrors

We are mirrors to each other
If there wouldn’t be you there wouldn’t be me either.
You are a mirror for me that I know that I exist.
I need you as my mirror that I know and experience that there is me.
I want to reflect to you that beautiful and multidimensional picture
that I see in you.

Building website online ontime

This world has changed a lot since I was a kid and even a student. Nobody knew about computers few ten years ago. Now everything happens online, in realtime.

We are sitting at the computer in different parts of the world with my husband, he is doing changes to my website and I am giving some comments. I see the process in realtime and either approve or decline or suggest something else.

Is this healing work or what is this?
This time it is fun yet usually I don't like too much of website work. This just happens to be part of every kind of work today.